We are having an absolutely wonderful day today. I have been struggling within myself and as a mother over the last month or so. I think it is because most nights, I get up to one or both of my children at least twice. Sometimes it can be up to six times and I think I have a major sleep deficit as a result. I was honest with my family and some friends and it has really helped. They have been so so helpful, particularly, my in-laws. I have had plenty of time out to myself which has been very rejuvenating.
Today is about the fifth day in a row where I haven’t felt like I’ve been struggling and it is feels very positive. Today has been simple but really lovely. I didn’t have the best sleep last night. My little bunny woke up a number of times for feeds and I was concerned about my niece who is unwell in hospital. I came back from dropping my husband into town and I tore a hole in my car’s tyre. Yet I felt really positive. I decided not to go back to bed after dropping hubby off. I had my cup of tea on my own and spent some time checking my emails. I even ended up having breakfast on my own before the bunnies woke up. Perhaps that time on my own this morning helped?
The little bunnies were happy as they always are when they awaken in the morning. They had a slow but relaxed and cuddly breakfast. Big Bunny watched a couple of his favourite shows and Little Bunny played whilst I had a shower. The little bunny went down easily for her morning nap (which is normally on the run because we tend to go out most mornings) and slept for two hours. I had the most beautiful time with my big bunny whilst little one slept. We cleaned the kitchen together, went for a bike ride up and down our little road, we watched the NRMA mechanic change our tyre and hopefully both learned something, we practised how to catch a ball, pottered around the yard and had a jump on the trampoline. It was really nice and special as it’s hard to give one-on-one attention to both of my children. When the little bunny woke up we went down to visit our mechanic who said he could fix our car after our shopping. Big bunny was quite cute as he recalled that the mechanic normally has his dogs in his office and proceeded to play in their empty cage. We did our groceries and both little ones had a great time. They both love pushing the buttons at the supermarket which make cow and chicken noises. We arrived back at the mechanic and had a picnic on the grass whilst the tyres were being changed. Big bunny delighted in watching the car moving up and down on the big trolley and watching the tyres being changed. Little bunny enjoyed eating the grass and rubbing her food in the dirt. Now we are home and Little Bunny is sound asleep and Big Bunny is supposed to be napping but I can hear him playing in his room.
I don’t know whether it is the gorgeous autumn weather or if I’ve just had some relief because I’ve pinpointed my stuff is around sleep deprivation but it has been a really, really lovely day and I am so grateful for my new headspace.
P.S. I don’t know if anyone is reading this blog but it sure is nice and clarifying to type my thoughts out. The idea around this is that it is more of a diary than a blog I’m going to actively promote. However if there is someone out there reading, “Hello”.